Imogen Heaps Newest CD Release

Little Bird

Little bird, little bird, little bird
What do you hear?
The clink of morning cheers
Orange juice concentrate
Crossword puzzles start to grade
One across
Four letter word, it's just not sitting

Little bird, little bird, little bird
What do you see?
A picture perfect scene
Two toned lawns are manicured
The gardens wearing haute couture

It's hiding something
It's trying too hard
Hiding something
It's trying too hard

Little bird, little bird, little bird
Where are they now?
Day time TV lounge
A carriage clock, a mantle piece
A family wiped up, j cloth cleaned
Unsaid, festers in the throws of the sofa

Little bird, little bird, little bird
How are you feeling?
Like ??? quarantine
Pearly whites, touch down smile
Haps and creases round the eyes

Tell tale, heart sail
We smell rats in the kitchen
Tell tale, heart sail
We smell rats in the kitchen

Little bird, little bird, little bird
What can we do?
A think tank think rescue
Simon says, etch a sketch
Send a golden message only he would get
Quickly now
Cause this is not how it ends

Little bird, little bird, little bird
(Little bird, little bird, little bird)
Well I've got one more question
(Little bird, little bird, little bird)
And I swear I'll let it rest
(Little bird, little bird, little bird)
Well I've just one more question
(Little bird, little bird, little bird)
And I swear I'll let it rest

One more question
I'll let it rest
I swear I'll let it rest
Got one more question
(And I swear I'll let it rest)
I've got one more question

Little bird, little bird, little bird
Where have you gone?

Lyrics courtesy of Metro Lyrics.

<3
Lauren

Moods

Cassi came...and Cassi went.

She was here for five days, but it felt like five seconds. Despite the fact that it went by faster than I would have liked, we had a blast! Every time she comes up I realize how awesome she is and how we'll be best friends forever, no matter how long we go without seeing each other.
My dad took pictures of us on her last day here so when he picks out the best one, I will put it up on here.


I'm trying to get inspired here, to write something of interest, but nothing is happening...

I can say that I'm kind of sad no one has said anything to me about my This I Believe because I honestly need help with it...

I've been slightly depressed these last two days, and I don't know if it has to do with Cassi leaving, or school starting or what but it is really bringing me down...I sometimes just start to cry,which is really out of character for me because I hate crying, especially in front of someone. I guess no one really likes to be seen crying, but when I am caught, which I assure you does not happen often, I get really nasty and mean, which in turn makes me more depressed or sad.
I sometimes hate how average I am. I mean I am smart, but not brilliant, I'm O.K. looking, but not beautiful, I sing good, but not great, I live in a small upper class town and will go to a nice college where I will get a degree in business or something along those lines. Even my name is ordinary, Lauren Racheal (yes, that is how I spell it) O'Brien. Go ahead and search me, YOU'LL NEVER FIND ME! That is how ordinary I am, my name is so common hundreds of people have it....I just found 24 people on twitter who have my name, and I am talking to them right now. Whenever people talk about my sister and I and what they see us doing when we're older they say (and this is a direct quote from my mother) "Darbi, I see you becoming famous and discovering something big. Lauren, I see you working hard at your job and taking care of your family." Yep. that is what she said. I never told her that I loathed what she said or that it wouldn't be that way because I believe it. That is just how my life is going to go, and it sucks.

I feel lonely. My sister has had her group of three that she's known her whole life and has been hanging out with them or her boyfriend everyday this summer. (another depressing thought: Darbi who is 2 years younger than me has had a boyfriend for the past 5 months, and this isn't her first. while I haven't had anything resembling a boyfriend besides Peter, which doesn't count) Both my parents are extremely busy with work recently so they don't have time for me either. My only close friend in town has volleyball or babysitting every hour of every day. So I'm by myself, ranting to you in a rediculously cliche-teenage-everything-is-about-me kind of way. It sickens me.

I'm sorry for this really uninspiring post,
Lauren
PS~ I decided I don't like my pen name (humming sue) so I don't think I'll use it anymore.

This I Believe...

Over the summer I had to write a "This I Believe" (you know, like the ones on NPR. Here's the website if you want to check it out, it's pretty cool: http://www.npr.org/templates/story/story.php?storyId=4538138 ) for my AP English class. They have to be about something I believe in as a person (obviously) and has to be 350 to 500 words long. I've been going over a few different options in my head and wrote a couple out. This one is my favorite, but I feel like it still needs a lot of work...If you are good with grammar, or enjoy reading senior papers, or just want to know what I believe in, PLEASE read it and if you find any mistakes at all, TELL ME! Even if it's just to say that you think this is crap and I should rewrite or it's not focused enough, I don't care how mean you get, because I want to get an A on this paper. Thanks! Oh! and I need a title for it too, so if you think of anything catchy that would fit this, please let me know...

TITLE IN PROGRESS

You could say me and Change have had a pretty rocky relationship, one headed down a very steep, very threatening hill.

Since I was small, the mere thought of Change terrified me. At night I would cry for my dad to come quickly– not to check for the Boogeyman in my closet, or a monster hiding under my bed, but to assure me that he wouldn’t spontaneously decide to quit his job and move my family of four to a foreign town in a far away country where I would have to learn a completely new routine and way of life. My irrational fear affected every part of my daily routine, from eating the same lunch I pack everyday – a peanut butter and Nutella sandwich with some juice and an apple, to the route I took from class to class.

I avoided Change at all costs; this just seemed to encourage him to chase after me. When my parents told me we were moving three miles away at the end of my fourth grade year, I almost had a panic attack. Three miles away from all that I knew?! How would I survive?! No matter how much I protested, my house was packed and ready to go when the movers arrived.

I hated my new house with its big rooms and new neighborhood for two whole years after the move. Life went on, I adjusted and finally “the new house” became just “the house”. I met my best friend, Cassi, who lived in the house across the street. We were inseparable and I depended on her friendship heavily, but three years later, Change found me again. Cassi was moving 1,500 miles away the summer before our freshman year of high school. I screamed, I cried, I cursed and shook my fist at Change, but he didn’t seem to care. This was the lowest point in our relationship.

So, faster that I would have liked, Cassi was five states away and I had two weeks until I started high school, virtually by myself. I refused to let Change make me suffer, so I charged into high school, back straight and looking confident, even though I wasn’t remotely ready. Now, four years later, I don’t have to fake my confidence, or my independence. And that’s not the only thing that’s different: I believe in Change, one hundred percent. You may ask: how is that even possible?! And I will answer simply: without Change, I wouldn’t have grown as a person, I wouldn’t have met my best friend, experienced new situations that I have grown to love, or have gained so much confidence in myself to over come the obstacles Change throws at me. Now, as I prepare for college, another big Change, I smile and say “Bring it on!” because even after everything that has happened to me, I believe in Change.

There you go. I'm not overly fond of the ending; I wanted to say something about how everyone needs change and your life will suck if you don't trust him, but I just didn't know where to put it. What do you think of me capitalizing Change and calling it 'him' because I don't know how I feel about that either? Thank you all who read and comment this, if any!

Love you all,

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News! Get Your News Here!

1.LOCAL BUILDING BURNT DOWN

The restaurant that I work at burned down last night, no joke. It's horrible. The dinning room, kitchen and upstairs office are completely destroyed. They don't know what caused it yet. They also don't know when or if they are opening back up. The repairs are going to take a month at the least... This leads into my next bit of news very nicely....

2. JOB WANTED

I NOW NEED A JOB OR MY PARENTS WON'T LET ME GET A CAR TO DRIVE TO SCHOOL. and it sucks because before I acquired my job now at the restaurant, I had looked at every possible place in town and NO ONE was hiring. Sure, some took my application but they were just trying to be nice (nicer than the ones who told me flat out no to my face when I asked if they thought I could get an application) Anyways, I'm jobless a year away from college with only about $2,200 in my account to pay for books or anything i might need next year. AND as I said, my parents are now not going to let me get a car for school even though this is TOTALLY NOT MY FAULT, I mean, did i start the fire?!?! and before those of you who might think that, hey that's a possibility, let me assure you I DID NOT SET FIRE TO LITTLE ITALY! So, that's my situation right now. My good friend might get me a babysitting gig, but really, how long will that last? answer: until the end of summer, which doesn't help me in the slightest...

3. TEXAN BEST FRIEND ARRIVES TO A WARM WELCOME

On a happier note, Cassi's coming tomorrow at 3!!! YEAH! And even though I wish it wasn't so, the fact that Little Italy is probably going to be closed for who knows how long, I don't have to work while she's here! =] Which is good because I don't want to waste any time with her here.

4. LIGHTS, CAMERA...WELL YOU KNOW THE REST

I've started taking my senior pictures!! =] My dad is taking them for me because, and I don't know if I've said this before, but he's a photographer on the side. Which is great and cheap! =]
**SIDE NOTE OF INTEREST** My dad's side of the family is really big: he's the 3rd oldest of 7 kids. So I have a lot of cousins on that side and they are all older except two of them who are like 5 and 3yrs old. It's them, then me and Darbi in the middle, separated by a bunch of years. Anyways, I was constantly trying to get with my older cousins cause i felt left out and there is this wall in my grandparents den
that holds all my older cousins senior pictures in order of graduation and this year I AM JOINING THE WALL!!!!! YEAH! I have been waiting for this since sixth grade when my favorite girl cousin graduated and joined The Wall. (btw -all my cousins are really good looking) So, my pictures have to be PERFECT or else because once they are on The Wall, they NEVER come down... here's a sample picture (not a senior pic, just a photo from the day that I went out to take some...)
PS~ I just realized that this is the first picture of me that I have posted, do I look how you thought I would?


5. BREAK-IN GONE WRONG

I JUST LOCKED MYSELF OUT OF MY ROOM!!!! GAAAAAAAHHHHHHHH!!!! THAT WAS SOO ANNOYING AND DUMB! ok, 45 mins. ago I went to the store to get something for my mom and since I was in the middle of writing this I closed the door to stop Darbi from seeing this. Little did I know, when Darbi had come in my room earlier, she was playing with the lock on my door and left it locked so when i got home I was locked out...I just spent the last 30 minutes jimmying my door to get it open. Let's just say burglary is no longer an option for me.

6. MONTHLY TORMENTOR REEKING HAVOC

I am PMSing like you wouldn't believe and it's driving me and my family INSANE! PLEASE MAKE IT STOP!!! It is also causing me to be lazy and stuff my face... not a good combo.

7. AFTER MONTHS OF STRUGGLE, LOCAL GIRL MANAGES TO RETAIN A TAN

Yep, that's right folks...Lauren (me) officially has a tan!! It's dark, foreign and wonderful! Unfortunately, the tricky part is keeping it longer than 2 weeks...will keep you posted on this breaking news...

8. NEW TRENDS SHOW THAT CHILL TIME IS OVERRATED...

I have so much going on right now, I can't keep everything straight. School starts in 29 days, I still have to write 2 outlines of the books that I read over the summer for AP English (they were Kite Runner (soooo good) and The Poisonwood Bible (another favorite of mine)) along with a "This I Believe..." which I will be posting after I finish it, and a sample college essay (all this for AP English). I also have to write the essays for and fill out the apps for the five colleges I'm applying for (UofM, State, DePaul, Loyola, IUB and Kalamazoo). I also need to rack up some volunteer hours for National Honors Society because I've done squat this summer...Now, I have to find another job, which as stated above, is NOT going to be easy. I have to go school shopping still which is a really big deal in my family. It's like a weekend event. I am working at my mom's dog event next weekend which is going to be hectic and not fun because mom tends to get very edgy and stressed, lashing out to any who cross her path when an event comes up. I feel like I have no time to just relax, I mean, I even have to set up an alarm clock which is sooooooo wrong because it's summer and I shouldn't have to wake up to an alarm clock at 7 in the morning everyday!

9. GIRL ACCUSED OF BLOG NEGLECT

It's true. And I am sorry for the heinous crimes I have committed. But I can't take all the blame, I mean, as I have previously stated, I have been very busy with life. Unfortunately, I think I have come down with Blog-Deserter-ites. It's been a tough few weeks and I just couldn't shake it, but now hopefully I have been cured. Only time will tell...

10. SAID GIRL TURNING SEVENTEEN!

Yeah! You better believe it! I will be seventeen, at last, in 48 days! This means: NO 12 O'CLOCK CURFEW!! and I CAN GO SEE R RATED MOVIES WITHOUT HAVING TO SNEAK IN! no more annoying my friends with having to be home early! YAY! can't wait :] watch out people of the world, Lauren becomes invincible in 48 days 3 hours and 30 minutes!!

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<3 Humming Sue

PS~ how long can these things be? are they limitless?